At it’s core, my blog it is a quest for deeper meaning and understanding. It runs on an annual cycle with updates to older posts, new art, and new stories being added each year. The recurring Jan 1st post, Shadow, sets the stage by revealing the personal story of my mother’s suicide. I don’t mention it often during the rest of the year, but it is there…my shadow…my darkness. That posts also provides some ideas and ways for you to identify and think about your own shadow.
Lightworker appears as my second post of each year because it is also a key part of my blog’s foundation, and the counterbalance for my shadow. In it’s earliest iterations, this post was simply a collection of art with swirling energy. I was aware of this creative tendency and noticed the rush I felt when creating art depicting flowing energy and lights. I didn’t understand where the inspiration came from or what it meant, but I knew I liked it.
I’ve come to appreciate that these works may actually have deeper personal meaning. Taken as a whole, they may be unintentional projections of my persona. Famed psychologist Carl Jung used the term persona to describe the collection of masks we wear as we present ourselves to the world around us. Persona and Shadow are powerful psychological forces we each having swirling within and around us.
The featured image for this post comes from a session six years ago. At the time, I was thinking about the somewhat puzzling reaction I sometimes experience when first meeting a woman. One sensation feels magical. It’s like a light turns on and sparkles in her eyes. Her body language, eye contact, and smile are firing like fireworks and the space between feel almost electrically charged. The other extreme is complete indifference…a dark void between us. This same experience has played out in my blogging journey. Plenty of women check out my blog, move on, and never return. They feel nothing here. In contrast, I have made some incredibly special connections here that I will always cherish.
As many of the works in this post took shape, I was dialed in on the energy flow I feel with women, the connections we have shared, and the mysterious magical force I feel emanating from some women. These kindred souls have visited my blog here and there, listened for while, and touched my soul. What did these women feel in my art or stories? Surely it was more than the occasional wet panties or gently pounding heart. While there is a lot of erotica on this blog, there is something deeper, more sensual, and liberating happening here that speaks to her. If my stories resonate, it is because she sees herself in my journey. Actually, her journey is also my journey. We both flow in the same timeless energy current.
Fast forward a few years, and I found myself spiraling down on a topic long since forgotten but came across the concept of “lightworker”. Lightworkers are people who have experienced some form of mystical/spiritual awakening in their lives and feel the calling to unleash healing emotional energy. They radiate with an energy that others in need may be drawn to. Those drawn to this energy may themselves be lightworkers but have lost their way and forgotten the energy residing within them. While lost in darkness, they still recognize this energy in others and are drawn to the light. If a connection is made, they are once again illuminated.
Do I consider myself to be a lightworker? No. Perhaps it has been me that is lost in darkness and lightworkers are illuminating me or perhaps I have been calling to them for help. I’m not going to explore this any further, but it is intriguing because I have always had a fascination with light and have often selected usernames that made references to light. There is something happening here.
I attribute my fascination with light and energy to the archetypal energy of Dionysus. To the ancient Greeks, Dionysus represented the dancing universe and ceaseless flow of energy that unites all of us with one another and the universe. This is the archetypal force that calls to me in my dreams. Perhaps Dionysus was the original lightworker. My heightened awareness of light and darkness is one of several reasons behind my blog title – The Dionysian Experience.
If this your first visit, welcome to The Dionysian Experience. Open the door…step inside and get turned on.
If interested, I have more videos and digital art available here – Visual Arts