Cuckold Corner – Brian’s Cuckold Confession

Thank you for checking out another edition of the Cuckold Corner. Today, Brian takes a seat in the corner to share his biggest fantasy – interracial cuckolding. Brian describes himself as a married, mid-40s attractive white male with a passion for white women who like black men.

Michael – Thanks for reaching out and offering to share your story. I’ve seen a bit of it previously but would like to expand on a few things for others who are curious about this kink. You mentioned having this fantasy (black men/white women) early on in life. When did you first become aware of it?

Brian – I first remember masturbating to the thought of it in high school. It usually involved fantasies about black guys at my school having sex with my girlfriend.

Michael – What do you think triggered this?

Brian – It seemed like the black guys were having a lot more sex than the white guys back then. I was still a virgin and not feeling very sexually confident. I guess that made them seem more sexually capable to me. Combining that with what I saw in the locker room seemed to give rise to the fantasy. My girlfriend was so pristine, and I always wondered what she would do if she ever saw one of those big cocks. I thought about this a lot while jerking off.

🔍 Brian’s core description of his fantasy is incredibly rich in psychological drivers. His perception or even his expectation of his girlfriend’s “pristine” nature juxtaposed against sexual liberation is a theme I explore in Hestia vs. Aphrodite and Courtly Love. His perception that his black classmates were more sexually active and capable is something I explore more in depth in a series called the Black Mystique.

Michael – Did you ever share this fantasy with your girlfriend?

Brian – No way! She would have died and thought I was crazy! I was too afraid to mention it to anyone. It would have gotten all over school and been so humiliating.

Michael – I get that. It’s a fantasy that is hard (nearly impossible) to share with other guys and one I only share gently with women. So, your fantasy started early on and continues today?

🔍 I’ve seen several instances of sexual research (real academic research) that suggest ~ 50% of men fantasize about watching their lover with another man. While being a common and popular fantasy, it is still a fantasy that is hard to share with other men in real life and even hard to share with the woman we love.

Brian – I thought it would subside with age, but it hasn’t. I still have such an overwhelming attraction to white women that love big black cock.

Michael – You are married now. Have you shared this fantasy with your wife?

Brian – I did share this with my wife but she completely shut me down and made me feel like an idiot. I won’t do that again. Now, I fantasize all the time about being in a cuckold relationship with another white female that isn’t my wife. If I could do it all over again, I would find a wife who was attracted to black men and open to having black babies. I would love to share the intimacies, openness, and hot fun that such a relationship could offer.

Michael – You mention a couple things here that I’d like to dig a little deeper on – wife breeding and your wife’s rejection of your fantasy. In terms of your wife’s rejection, is there is a lesson in this for other men or couples?

Brian – Maybe this can a lesson for other white guys out there who have similar desires but are already married. My humble advice would be to give it your all in finding a woman who shares a smilar interest. Otherwise, accept that it is inside you and will always be a fantasy you will have to manage.

🔍 Cuckolding is a fantasy that often doesn’t make sense to women. One of the most common concerns is that the man is using cuckolding as an excuse to have sex with other women. The other challenge is that the fantasy runs counter to everything women have been brought up to believe in about relationships and men. It seems shocking that a man would want his lover to have sex with other men. It’s unfortunate that so many women reject this fantasy entirely and aren’t even willing to explore it at the fantasy level. A woman’s rejection doesn’t end her man’s desire, it only redirects it…away from her.

Michael – It seems you have redirected your sexual energy to internet communities focused on cuckolding and living the fantasy vicariously through others in the lifestyle. Is that a fair assessment?

Brian – Yes, that is what I do now. Before the days of the internet I thought I was alone in wanting to be a cuckold. Since then, I can see that there are many men like me who are in awe of the eroticism of interracial cuckoldry. Most of us will probably never find our ‘dream partner’ but that doesn’t stop us dreaming and fantasizing…which is a pleasure in itself! I am dedicated to the beauty of interracial sex between big black men and white women.

🔍 Just how popular is this “secret” sexual kink? Neuroscientists Ogi Ogas and Sai Gaddam analyzed one billion sex-related search terms as research for their 2012 book, A Billion Wicked Thoughts. They found that cuckold-related searches rank #2 among most searched for sexual content on the internet. Black cock, big black, and black men were also commonly searched two-word phrases.

Michael – Circling back to your fantasy of a black man “breeding” your wife. Why do you think it excites you more that the man is black?

Brian – The thought does makes me so hot! It does! In some ways I see myself as the typical small, white cuckold male. In the presence of bigger, stronger, and more dominant black man, I feel like a beta male. I get so turned on thinking about a physically superior black man taking my wife sexually and dominating both of us. It feels like this should be the natural order.

🔍 In interest of keeping this interview to manageable read. I will defer the full “Wife Breeding” discussion to my post – Cuckold Psychology – Wife Breeding. In short, this fantasy deals with the cuckold’s submission to the Alpha male and the humiliation of surrendering his wife’s womb to another man – the ultimate state of emasculation. This is male submission/emasculation pushed to the edge. Ladies, we know women own their bodies and it isn’t the man’s choice to surrender his lover’s womb. It is a fantasy. Some women (including a few of my past lovers) find the breeding fantasy very arousing too and have shared their thoughts: Sienna on Wife Breeding, Lilah on Wife Breeding (coming soon), and Amanda on Wife Breeding (coming soon). For women, the fantasy seems to flow from submission and being taken in the most complete manner by a dominant, physically superior alpha male.

Michael – Your erotic energy around this feels quite primal…like a return to the wild. Since he is bigger and stronger, he gets the reward of breeding the sexy female – your lover. You accept this but, more importantly, your lover wants to give birth to the Alpha’s offspring and not carry on your weak genes, right?

Brian – Yes, exactly! You really do get this! I feel so deeply aroused by the thought of being in an interracial cuckold relationship in which one or more big black males ‘own’ my partner and me – as long as we are all happy and consent to the arrangements.

Michael – When you say being “owned”, I imagine this also includes sexual acts. Would you mind sharing what type of sexual fantasies you have around this?

Brian – Everything really. I would do whatever he wanted – he would own me and my wife. We are there for his pleasure. 

Michael – So, you would suck his cock and, if allowed, swallow his cum?

Brian – Yes, anything he commanded me to do.

🔍 Brian’s cuckold fantasy is several additional fantasies interwoven with it. Interracial sex (as a kink) is distinct fantasy unto itself but commonly intertwined with cuckolding. Brian also seems to enjoy D/s play. In his case both his wife and himself would serve in a submissive role. As for his sexual contact with the Alpha male, this could be because he is bi-sexual or that he experiences the contact as a form of erotic humiliation.

Michael – I’m curious. If you were a single man, would you be open to seeing another man in a one-on-one relationship?

Brian – No.

Michael – Thinking about others who will be reading this, can you help readers understand why you would be willing to suck a cock in the context of your fantasy but not interested in seeing a man as a potential lover or in a one-on-one situation?

Brian – It is taking my place in the natural order as the beta male and serving the dominant male along with my wife that excites me.

🔍 Some cuckolds will do things with the Alpha male/Bull in the context of cuckold play but have zero interest in male-male contact outside of that scenario. I believe this stems from submission and/or masochism. The cuckold is diminished and “forced” to do things he wouldn’t have to do if he were a “real man” like the Alpha/Bull. He is degraded and “forced” to have a long, thick cock stuffed in his mouth…in front of his lover who also craves the Alpha’s superior cock. It is submissive, degrading, and wildly erotic for some cuckolds.

Michael – Brian, thank you so much for sharing your fantasy. I think there will be a lot of takeaways for those who read this.

Brian – Thank you Michael! This was a lot of fun and you made me think about a few things in a way I hadn’t really considered before. 

Like many cuckolds, Brian’s fantasy is multi-layered. Interracial sex and his submission (beta male status) to a dominant male are his erotic hot buttons. Cuckolding is the essential platform that makes these fantasies possible. Masochism/Erotic humiliation in the form of being less physically endowed than his lover desires and wife breeding are also present. It is worth noting that Femdom is not an key erotic driver for his fantasy. He and his lover are submissive to the dominant male.

Suggested readings:

• Cuckold Corner – The Interviews – A listing of additional interviews, brief summaries, and links to the full interviews
• Cuckold Psychology – The Essentials
• Sensual Shadows Chronology – My loving, erotic journey into cuckolding with Sienna