I remember so vividly the first time I saw Sienna cry.
I can be a bit naughty, but what I enjoy more than anything is slipping into the soulful space where I can look into my lover’s eyes and witness the universe unfolding before me as I spiral into a dreamy haze. The first time I saw Sienna cry was one such night. I had picked up a couple bottles of wine and had candles lit in our hotel room which provided a warm, dreamy light…much like I feel when close to Sienna. I had also bought a rose which has special meaning for me (Love is My Life’s Work).
Deep into the evening, Sienna’s long, sexy legs are wrapped tight around my hips and her arms tight around my shoulders. It feels urgent and intense…like she is holding onto life itself and will never let go. Our bodies are flushed, hot, and slippery with the pleasure of every touch and soft moan seemingly magnified. Our faces are so close…a dreamy mix of the light touching of lips blended with deep, breathtaking kisses that have my head spinning. We were truly melting into one.
I am moving slow and deep inside her. In her soft angelic voice, she is whispering, “I love you, Michael” over and over as she presses her forehead gently against mine while sliding her lips against mine. My eyes are gently rolling as I open and close them. I am stealing peeks and notice eyes are open. We hold our eye contact but it doesn’t feel like she is looking “at” me. No, she is looking “into” me…deep into my soul. We are making love and soul gazing. Our bodies are soaked and we are melting into one. Staring into her eyes, my own eyes are watering and my body is shaking. It feels like my soul is on fire. Sienna keeps is moaning and whispering how much she loves me as she comes over and over and over. Her words are so urgent and hungry. It like every time she says, “I Love You”, she cums.
The emotional intensity is absolutely overwhelming and, I swear, I am on the verge of blacking out from the engulfing euphoria. Instead, I come. Oh god, I come. Staring into her eyes, I moan deeply and release. The moment is transcendent ecstasy. I transcended and blacked out. Awakening in our dreamy afterglow, Sienna is nestled in against my chest. She is gently shaking…softly crying. I pull the hair away from her face and her eyes are glassy with tears were streaming down her cheeks. I immediately pull her up closer and hold her tight. I don’t need to ask what is wrong. I can sense what she was feeling, and I am feeling the same way. Her breathing becomes more desperate as she clutches onto me so tightly. I tear up with her. No words are needed.
I had been holding it in so deep for months. It was my true inner sadness and I just couldn’t hold it in anymore. The pain and tears were about gaps of loss and time without you. I want to spend so much more time with you and give you more…all of me. I want US to be in full bloom, always!!! The way you held me and how I melted into you was just so perfect and heartfelt. I Love You! – Sienna
Our visit had been a very emotional and deeply connecting time for us. Sienna shared some of the hurt she has felt in life by being repeatedly taken for granted and not appreciated for all she gives to others. I assured her that I would never take her for granted and that my greatest desire is that she always feel loved and cherished. I love her sensual soul and do dream about a future with her. I believe in her. I believe in us. I Believe.
Saying goodbye at the airport was tough. After dropping her off, I watch her walk inside the terminal. I fight the urge to hop out my car and run inside for just one more kiss…to look into her eyes and glimpse into heaven one more time. There is a lot of sadness in this moment, but there is also beauty in that pain.
Yes, passion and pain are two sides of the same coin. If there wasn’t this feeling of such magnitude and depth, our time together wouldn’t be so amazing and it wouldn’t hurt so bad to say goodbye!!! I’m sorry I was sobbing as we said goodbye. It only gets harder and harder to leave you! I hate those days when I’m leaving. Every minute is torture because I know I will miss you so damn much! Baby!!!! Stomping!!! I want to dream with you, love you, live with you…spend every moment with you❤😘❤😘❤ – Sienna
These painful goodbyes linger. A golden shimmer on the leather passenger seat catches my eye. It is a long, blonde hair…a little treasure Sienna left behind. I pick it up and look at it closely as it rests in my palm. I chuckle at myself because I am so enamored with this woman. Even the touch of her golden strand whisks me away into dreamland. I place it gently against my dark jeans for contrast. I move it around while thinking about her and, without planning it, eventually form it into the shape of a heart. Sitting here in my car playing with a strand of hair, I am flooded with such emotion. To know the depth of my love for her and to feel it returned and expressed with such beauty and sensuality. It is magical.
In the winter of life, we will remember those who touch our soul. That flame is eternal, and for those who light my soul, I will always melt with you. Always.
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Priceless. And so heartwrenchingly beautiful. Love to you both.
Sometimes it hurts…a lot! But, you captured it perfectly, it is “heartwrenchingly beautiful.” Thank you Desiree!
This was such a beautiful and tender moment for US! These are the moments to take pause in any relationship and truly feel the emotion and deep feelings of one another! Thank you Michael! I Love You Sweetheart
This was beautiful you two. Its not easy being able to confide in someone, even the ones we love and give ourselves too. But when we do, when we open up and share so much of ourselves the good and bad, our joys and fears, triumphs and disappointments and know that we will be taken care of and loved even more for it is an amazing thing. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you Tis for your support and encouragement. 🙂 We all have our journey and challenges along the way. Like you and B have experienced, being able to open up and share…knowing your open heart will be met with love and the desire to understand is a deep and special gift.
You are so welcome! It is a gift and I’m grateful everyday for it as I know you and Sienna are as well. xoxo
When the love is that great, and the desire to be together that strong, there comes a certainty that, no matter how long it takes, somehow, someday you’ll be together as you wish to be. With that certainty, the departures, although painful, are bearable. The reunions, although overflowing with anxious passion, feel more like a natural course of being, how the world should be, as if you’re simply continuing a long, comforting book you put down temporarily when your focus was elsewhere.
Baby, this was a beautiful comment to Michael and Sienna…
Ah man, I love your thoughts on this! Such a soothing peaceful flow to your thoughts…words bathed in the wisdom of a man that knows this journey and shares a similar destination. I could literally feel my heart rate slow down as read this…thanks for sharing your thoughts on this, JK!
I just find this so beautiful and tender. It reminded me of my lover and I expect that I wish he would express himself as you do. I feel it there is no doubt there but we both know that living our lifes together will never happen. Everytime we say good bye we both know that we dont know when we will see each other expect that we would want to one more time.
Thank you for your kind words on the emotions expressed in this post. It must be hard with such uncertainty about a shared future with your lover. I hope that one day you will believe in a future with the man of your dreams. :-)
Can I say ditto to what JK wrote? 🙂
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With moist eyes let me say I know your pain and bliss all to well. Sienna, I hope on his next visit here you will be able to meet him no matter where he lands. The kind of love you have together deserves to be together.
xox
Thank you for the heartfelt comment, Sofia. Sounds like you and JK just had a magical reunion…so happy for you guys and can’t wait to read about all of the fun you had! 🙂 Our next visit is long overdue, I think we have set a record for longest time apart and this is one milestone we never want to repeat. ;-)
We did. It was just sublime.
I don’t want to beat our record either… 7 weeks!
So, yes I hear you….
xox
Michael & Sienna, Another wonderful post and photo. Your openness and willingness to share your relationship with us is remarkable. Not everyone finds a “soul mate” someone who is completely open, and willing to expose every vulnerability they have to really allow for a connection on a deeper level. You two have that, and your love shines through in your expressions of love for each other. Because my wife and I share a similar relationship, your words resonate with us. Thank you once again for sharing with us more details about your wonderful relationship! :)
Thank you, Steve! I always appreciate thoughtful comments like yours. We all have a shared bond when feelings like this are understood by others. You see yourself and beautiful wife in these words…you both feel them and I love feeling that positive circle of energy flowing between all of us! I feel the same magic every time I am on your blog! :-)
Pain can be beautiful, can’t it? The passion of parting such sweet sorrow and the joy of reunion such sweet bliss….
So well said! The emotional pain and bliss come from the same place. Physical pain can be beautiful as well, and you capture that so well in your writing!
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Your most recent post says password protected 🤔🤔
Ah yes, you noticed? 😛I’m leaning towards making most of them protected soon. I seem to have lost my mojo and not creating anything that stirs people like I did in my early days of blogging. Basically, I’m now only flooded with lurkers (several hundred a day) that hit up all my cuckold content and never “like” or comment…nothing. That is beyond annoying to me – sucking up my energy and not returning it at all. So, I will just write to myself for a while and open it up again one day. If they want to see it, they will have to show themselves and ask for a passcode. If not, oh well. Anyway, hope things are going well for you and that you are in a better mood than I am right now 😄I’ll send you the passcode so you see whatever strikes your fancy 😘
Ugh same!! I don’t get the interaction and interest I use to. Seems everyone has moved on in some form or other. I, too, don’t have the energy. The feeling is pretty much gone now, I think of writing but when I get to it the feeling is gone and so is the energy. Nobody really reads and interacts anymore.
I love following this blog. How can I get a passcode? I found Amber’s Creampie to be one of the best erotic descriptions of this experience.
Thanks James, I decided to make a passcode for most of my cuckold content because no one ever likes or comments on it. Glad you enjoy my writing and art – appreciate the follow as well. Amber’s creampie is a personal experience, and I’m glad the description gives you a taste of that experience. Passcode is:
Your art work is amazing. You might enjoy looking at this erotic comic story currently in process by Allfantisies:
Its a cuckold couple and they are tremendous artists and story tellers like you.
Michael,
Thank you for your prompt response. I appreciate it. Looking forward to seeing more of your writing and art
James
Michael,
Thank you for your prompt response. I appreciate it. Looking forward to seeing more of your writing and art
James