The fantasy is always perfect. Reality is less controllable. The erotic buildup between Sienna and Jalen for our first cuckolding experience has been hot on many levels, but the early dialogue between them feels off. I want Sienna to have an amazing first experience and, if this doesn’t go well, I know there won’t be a second experience. Working through this fantasy over the past year, her thoughts and desires have always been filled with sensuality and hesitancy as she submits to my desire for her to be with another man (Cuckolding: A Submissive Woman’s Perspective). My loving and controlling presence was important to her.
Now, the erotic vignettes she is sending to Jalen have no mention of me at all or any form of submission laced throughout the imagery. It is coming across very differently from how Sienna and I want to experience this. Well, it is mostly different than how Sienna said she wanted to experience it. Their sexy banter is far more pornographic than erotic, and the sensual connection Sienna wants to have with me in the experience is completely absent from any of the erotic vignettes she is sending to Jalen.
Personally, I’m enjoying a lot of what is going on but want to ensure it matches her desires as much as possible. While I enjoy the Daddy Dom play we have experienced, cuckolding is what really gets me off. I am fine with Sienna experiencing Jalen in whatever way she desires. My concern (perhaps this is the Daddy in me) is that she may be overly excited about interacting with a new man (with a huge cock) and losing sight of the larger context. Once this is done, it can’t be undone. I don’t want her to behave in a way she might regret in our afterglow, when he is no longer in the picture.
I believe these early messages from Sienna will create expectations for how she wants Jalen to handle her, and she is casting Jalen in a more dominant role. This is very different than our dynamic where she is submissive to me, and I am “presenting her” to him. The contrast between these two scenes is dramatic. We discuss my concerns and Sienna assures me that she always sees me in the room and my presence is the part of the experience that excites her the most.
If this is indeed the case, I ask her to include to include and reinforce my presence and role in the erotic vignettes she shares with Jalen. Sienna agrees but is defensive. She points out that Jalen (a long-time follower of our blog) has read all of our stories and understands the experience we want to have. I suggest that Jalen will only feel and anticipate what she communicates to him. What she says to him is what he will expect. I’m not satisfied with my girl’s reaction and decide to reach out to Jalen. I copy Sienna on the email.
Subject: Fine Wine vs. Tequila
Sounds like life is pretty full and exciting for you these days. Speaking of which, I’m really looking forward to seeing Sienna excited and full of you! We’ve come a long way from the first back and forth sexy banter on our blogs. Really, this couldn’t have worked out any better. I like that it was our willingness to use our minds and creativity that drove us to WordPress and subsequently to meeting one another. While your physical attributes certainly have Sienna dripping with anticipation, it is her sense of knowing you for a while and your understanding of our relationship that gives her the courage to finally make this fantasy a reality. I feel the same way.
Regarding our play, especially this first time, I want to ease Sienna into this. Being taken by another man will be emotionally intense for her, and I don’t want her to feel like things are moving too fast. While it may not be coming through in her messages, our sensual connection throughout the evening will be important for us as a couple during the sexy fun and as we emotionally process this experience in our afterglow. Sustaining our connection is essential to us having a positive experience and our interest in future visits.
Sienna is a sensual woman…an angel exploring her naughty side. As I think about the vibe of our evening together, a comparison might be useful. One experience has the vibe of pounding tequila shots followed by Red Bull chasers. The other is like sipping a fine wine and savoring the rich multi-layered essence of wetness coating your tongue and filling your senses. Sienna is a fine-wine experience and should be savored slowly, richly, and deeply. As the evening progresses or in future visits the tone may change as we will explore different types of play.
Sienna is delicate and flowing… a beautiful flower with silky wet petals waiting to be opened and explored deeply by you. ~ Michael
After sending the email, I am curious to see how Jalen will respond. Frankly, I’m curious how Sienna will respond. I have remained on the periphery in the shadows to give them space to build their erotic energy. However, I have a lot vested in this experience too and felt like I needed to step in and get things on track. These are tough moments for a man about to be cuckolded. My girl is seducing another man and craving his cock. He has her pussy wet with anticipation and can’t wait to fuck the hell out of her.
I feel like I’m losing control as I know I should, but this is much easier said than done. I want to protect our vision of the fantasy and, I suppose, my vision of Sienna – sensual, dreamy, and erotic. Maybe I’m being selfish, but Sienna and I are the couple and this experience will become part of our journey. I need to ensure it something we can savor as a couple in our afterglow. Now, I will slip back in shadows and watch as our erotic play unfolds…closer to script, hopefully.
Sienna is the first to respond to my email. Her response was positive but a bit brief.
Baby, I just read your email twice and LOVED it!!!! It was so good! You made me feel all warm inside. I like how you shared how connected we are and the way you used the ‘tequila-fine wine’ metaphor!!!! Mmmmm!
A full day passes and Jalen still hasn’t responded. Well, if my email upset him then perhaps he wasn’t a good match for us after all.
Sienna feels differently and begins to slowly open up about my email. She reminds me that Jalen isn’t “me” and doesn’t need to do things the way I would do them. He should do what comes naturally to him. I become defensive and remind her that she doesn’t like that type of behavior, and I won’t let him treat her that way. In a roundabout way, Sienna comes to Jalen’s defense. “I am not for Jalen in the same way I am for you. You don’t want me to be that for him. I don’t want to be that for him.” She reminds me that I am the perfect man for her, and she isn’t looking for a man to replace me…except occasionally between her legs.
I pushed hard on ensuring Sienna’s initial vision of our cuckold fantasy got back on track. She pushed back and assured me that she liked the way things were playing out and feels like Jalen is the perfect Bull for what we are looking to experience. I think she was even a little upset that I might have deprived her of experiencing the cock she can’t stop thinking about. She said she would reach out to Jalen to try and smooth things over but asked that I not email him for a while. Coming out of this discussion, I’m feeling confused…and also very turned on.