In the afterglow of Sienna’s first massage – Sensual Massage (Part I), we enjoyed countless hours of erotic fun discussing our naughty adventure and how it might evolve in future massages. Day after day, the woman I love is beginning to fantasize more and more about fucking another man. Day after day, my balls are filling with anticipation as we transition from fantasy to reality.
As much as I want to provide this gift of pleasure to my girl (and for myself), don’t think for a second that this journey is easy. Cuckolding is a complicated fantasy with an intense emotional burn swirling amidst the erotic wild fire. I love Sienna like I have never a loved a woman before. Romance and sensuality are deeply interwoven in the fabric of our experience. Even though it fills me with wild lust thinking about her being taken by another man with a bigger cock, there will be nothing emotionally casual about the experience. This emotional intensity is often overlooked, but it is fuels the edgy erotic swirl.
Sienna and I first explored how we want to experience the fantasy through an erotic story called Unveiled. It was the first time we shared this fantasy in a public manner on our old blog called Sensual Shadows. I never shared Unveiled as a “new release” on this blog but the two-part story is available here – Part I and Part II.
When I think about Sienna with another man, what do I look forward to seeing? I will so enjoy watching the way she responds to the fullness as he opens up her tight little pussy like never before. I crave the visual of her pink lips stretched tight around his long, veiny thickness as he touches her in places she never even knew existed – places I will never reach. I want her to experience that explosion of unknown erotic pleasure as she comes like never before on his cock. Even though I want it for her, it still burns in a dizzyingly erotic way to hear the woman I love expressing her desire for a bigger cock and coming to visions of being taken by other men. Still, as long as I feel our love and feel she is experiencing this gift of pleasure as part of our naughty adventure as loving couple, it all feels hot for me.
For the first time, Michael’s fantasy was revealed to me in a clearer way. I wasn’t truly getting the idea of him “giving me to another man”. It sparks a fire in him and is also a gift of physical fulfillment for the one he loves – His girl. This gift is about my physical pleasure but also forges a deeper emotional connection for us. My gift to Michael is submitting to His desire and a deeper connection of trust and love for us. – Sienna
While I am navigating my own swirl, it isn’t exactly easy for Sienna either. As her second massage appointment gets closer, she is beginning to struggle with the reality of potentially touching and being touched by another man. Fantasy is one thing, reality is another.
I appreciate that there could many potential causes for her hesitation. It could be that it goes against her true sexual desires. She may not actually want to touch or be touched by another man. Another possibility may be that she is open to being with other men but is concerned about what I will think about her or that my feelings may change. It could be that pressure of societal expectations about how a woman “should behave” are creating cognitive dissonance as she tries to claim her sexual liberation. I discuss this cognitive dissonance in Hestia vs. Aphrodite. Or, maybe it is my physical presence as the moment unfolds that she needs.
We discuss what she is feeling and Sienna’s devotion to me is indeed one factor. Sienna, like many of us, attaches a lot of emotional meaning to sex. She has only been with a few men before meeting me and her sexual experiences have all been within loving relationships. The thought of allowing herself to be exposed during a massage or, even crazier, having sex with her massage therapist is something she never considered before meeting me. Behaving like this now, while being in love with me, makes the prospect even more daunting and confusing. I appreciate Sienna’s hesitation and angst. There is something very romantic, innocent, and alluring about her feeling this way. There is an angelic aura around her naughtiness.
Against the backdrop of this emotional swirl, Sienna is admittedly excited about the prospects of her new-found sexual freedom and the prospect of adding some diversity to her sexual experiences. She has felt this dark craving for so long but never thought it would happen. Now, the potential to make it a reality is only days away. The clashing of her romantic, loving feelings for me and her naughty desires to experience other men – men with bigger cocks – is generating angst and fueling her erotic swirl. It feels wrong but this unquenched yearning fills her erotic fantasies and makes her so very wet.
Beyond her struggle with the “wrongness” of what she is considering, it also works against her desire to be submissive to me. As we explored in Unveiled (Part I) and Part II, Sienna made it clear that in her ideal world, she would want me in the room directing what is happening. If another man touches her, she wants to feel like she is allowing it to happen as an act of submission to me.
Sweet Love, it gets me so hot and wet thinking of you watching me and seeing my tiny pussy being filled with such a big, thick black cock! This is so hot!!! I only need you to be looking over me, protecting me and in complete charge of the situation… – Sienna
I assure Sienna that I want her to experience all the pleasure she desires and deserves. I want her to feel and experience this newfound sexual freedom within the loving commitment and emotional safety of our relationship. And, even if I’m not physically present, I will be there with her in spirit and the experience will still be about our erotic journey as a loving couple.
As Sienna and I consider the submissive nature of this experience for her, one of the things we are wrestling with is how the other man might perceive the situation. I want him to know that she is in love with me and I am the one making it possible for my girl to experience this gift of guilt-free pleasure. I suppose this is the alpha-male part of me that I just can’t leave behind and struggle with as a cuckold. I will surrender a lot in cuckolding but not the deep soulful bond that must always reign supreme. Sienna feels the same way. She wants the other man to know that “all of this” is her submitting to my desire, not her being swept away by him. The fantasy plays out in the world of perceptions, but there are deeper emotional truths at play too.
So, here’s my complete erotic turn-on and twist in all of this. I don’t think I have ever shared this with you before. The other man with a big cock will know he can provide the deep, physically fulfilling pleasure I seek. He will think he has me and offers all that I need. He might even think he is controlling the scenario and will become the center of my universe. Yet, the impetus for me is what it is for US – our experience. It’s all about OUR pleasure seeking and part of our fun, captivating naughtiness. He plays a role that is not about the intimate, adoring love, and connection that defines Us!!!!! He may take my pussy, but it is our intimate and adoring love that can never be taken. What can’t be won over is the deep, heartfelt love and spiritual connection we have fostered and treasure. Mmmmm, this is my secret and real depiction of our fantasy and our true love, babe! – Sienna
As we move towards making our fantasy a reality, we consider several ways we might let the therapist in on the erotic dynamic we have in play. I suggest writing my name on her pussy. It would be a clear statement of ownership and awareness she belongs to another just before sinking his big cock inside her. The thought excites Sienna.
Awwwww Baby, I adore this! You just gave me butterflies! I would be getting fucked by a big cock with your name written in marker just above my pussy! “MICHAEL’S”
We talk through other, more realistic, options to include not moving forward at all. I know this will be a hot experience for me and feel like it will be hot for Sienna. She has really enjoyed her first moments of exhibitionism and her desire to cuckold me is really heating up. She bashfully admits that the thought of doing more to be very exciting and is open to taking it further next time. Our discussion flows into phone sex as I whisper naughty thoughts about her sucking his cock and how good it will feel to have him sinking what she hopes is his large manhood in her tight pussy. My girl’s string of orgasms that soon follow, while thinking about another man’s cock, speaks her truth. Sienna wants this as much as I want it for her.
The contrast between what is being given and what is received is amazing! The BIG COCK is purely about physical pleasure. It stands in stark contrast to the intense emotional and spiritual connection between lovers. Physical pleasure can be staged and experienced in a superficial way. But, what cannot be fabricated or ever replaced is the intense spiritual connection of WE. – Sienna
To be continued…
Interested in reading more about my loving, erotic journey with Sienna? You can find the chronology, brief descriptions of each story, and links here – Sensual Shadows – Chronology.