In the afterglow of Sienna’s first massage – Sensual Massage (Part I) we enjoyed endless hours of erotic fun discussing the experience and how it might evolve during future massages. Increasingly, Sienna seems to be opening up to the fantasy of being with another man, and her excitement is making it even hotter for me.
When I think about Sienna with another man, what do I look forward to seeing? I anticipate her response to the unexpected pleasure she will feel when her sweet little pussy is stretched wider and filled deeper than ever before. I anticipate the sight of her pink lips stretched tight around his long, veiny thickness as he stretches and touches places insider her that she never knew existed – places I will never reach. I want her to experience that explosion of unknown erotic pleasure as she comes like never before on his cock.
As much as I want to provide this gift of pleasure for my girl and want to be cuckolded, don’t think for a second that our erotic journey is an emotionally casual stroll in the park. Romance and sensuality are deeply interwoven in the fabric of my cuckold experience. It burns in a dizzyingly, erotic way to hear the woman I love expressing her desire to experience another man’s bigger cock. Still, as long as I feel our love and know she is experiencing this as part of our naughty adventure, it will always feel hot and emotionally safe for me. Cuckolding is a complicated fantasy with an intense emotional burn swirling through the fantasy. This edginess is often overlooked or hidden, but it is fuels the erotic swirl most cuckolds (myself included) crave.
For the first time, Michael’s fantasy was revealed to me in a clearer way. I wasn’t truly getting the idea of him “giving me to another man”. It sparks a fire in him and is also a gift of physical fulfillment for the one he loves – His girl. This gift is about my physical pleasure but also forges a deeper emotional connection for us. My gift to Michael is submitting to His desire and a deeper connection of trust and love for us. – Sienna
While I was navigating my own inner swirl, the journey hasn’t been easy for Sienna either. As her second massage appointment approaches, she is beginning to struggle with the reality of potentially touching and being touched by another man. Fantasy is one thing, reality is another.
There could many potential causes for her hesitation. It may work against her true sexual desires. She may not actually want to touch or be touched by another man. Another possibility is that she might be open to being with other men but is concerned about what I would think about her or that my feelings would change. It could be that the pressure of societal expectations around how a woman “should behave” is creating cognitive dissonance as she seeks sexual liberation. I discuss this form of cognitive dissonance in Hestia vs. Aphrodite. Or, maybe she wants me to be physically present when she touches another man.
Despite her struggles, Sienna is excited about her newfound sexual freedom and does want to explore this side of her sexuality. She has suppressed so many secret cravings over the years and thought they remain in fantasy land forever. The friction between her romantic, loving feelings for me and her naughty desires to experience other men – men with bigger cocks – is generating angst and fueling her erotic swirl. It feels wrong but this unquenched yearning fills her erotic fantasies and has her in a near constant state of arousal.
We discuss what she is feeling and Sienna’s devotion is indeed one factor. Sienna, like many of us, attaches a lot of emotional meaning to sex. She had only been with a few men before meeting me and her sexual experiences have all been within loving relationships. The thought of allowing herself to be exposed during a massage or, even crazier, having sex with her massage therapist is something she never considered before. Behaving like this now, while being in love, makes the prospect more daunting and confusing.
Beyond her struggle with the “wrongness” of being with another man, it also worked against her desire to be submissive to me. Sienna has made it clear that in her ideal world, she wanted me in the room directing what is happening. If another man touches her, she wants to feel like she is allowing it to happen as an act of submission to me.
Sweet Love, it gets me so hot and wet thinking of you watching me and seeing my tiny pussy being filled with such a big, thick cock! This is so hot!!! I only need you to be looking over me, protecting me and in complete charge of the situation… – Sienna
I find Sienna’s struggle very alluring. The tension she feels between her sweet, romantic, and innocent side juxtaposed against her naughty desires is completely captivating and mirrors my own struggle. I reassure Sienna that I want her to experience all the pleasure she desires and deserves. I want her to experience the fullness of her sexuality within the loving commitment and emotional safety of our relationship. And, even if I’m not physically present, I will always be there in spirit. The experience will always be about our erotic journey.
We also discuss the submissive nature of this fantasy, one of the things we wrestle with is how the other man might perceive the situation. I want him to know that she is in love with me, and I am the one making it possible for my girl to experience this gift of guilt-free sexual pleasure…from his cock. I suppose this is the alpha-male part of me that I just can’t leave behind and struggle with as a cuckold. I will surrender a lot in cuckolding, but I do need the other man to know that the woman he is fucking loves me deeply and, no matter how well he fucks her, our love will always reign supreme. Sienna feels the same way. She wants the other man to know that “all of this” is an expression of her submitting to my desire, not her being swept away by him.
“So, here’s my complete erotic turn-on and twist in all of this. I don’t think I have ever shared this with you before. The other man with a big cock will know he can provide the deep, physically fulfilling pleasure I seek. He will think he has me and offers all that I need. He might even think he is controlling the scenario and will become the center of my universe. Yet, the impetus for me is what it is for US – our experience. It’s all about OUR pleasure seeking and part of our fun, captivating naughtiness. He plays a role that is not about the intimate, adoring love, and connection that defines Us!!!!! He may take my pussy, but it is our intimate and adoring love that can never be taken. What can’t be won over is the deep, heartfelt love and spiritual connection we have fostered and treasure. Mmmmm, this is my secret and real depiction of our fantasy and our true love, babe!”
We consider different ways we might let the therapist in on the erotic dynamic we have in play. I suggest writing my name on her pussy. It would be a clear statement of ownership and awareness she belongs to another just before sinking his big cock inside her. The thought excites Sienna.
“Awwwww Baby, I adore this! You just gave me butterflies! I would be getting fucked by a big cock with your name written in marker just above my pussy! ‘MICHAEL’S'”
Recognizing this might freak him out, we talk through other more realistic options to include not moving forward at all. She reacts to this option by bashfully admitting she finds the thought of doing more very exciting and is open to taking it further next time. Her genuine desire to move forward with experiencing another man cock makes my own cock stiffen. Our discussion quickly evolves into phone sex with me whispering naughty thoughts about her sucking his cock and spreading her legs as to accept what we both hope will be his large cock in her pretty, little pussy. My girl’s string of orgasms while thinking about another man’s cock speaks to her truth. Sienna is craving another man’s cock inside her.
The contrast between what is being given and what is received is amazing! The BIG COCK is purely about physical pleasure. It stands in stark contrast to the intense emotional and spiritual connection between lovers. Physical pleasure can be staged and experienced in a superficial way. But, what cannot be fabricated or ever replaced is the intense spiritual connection of WE. – Sienna
To be continued…
You can find Part III here: Sienna’s Sensual Massages – Part III
You can find the chronology, brief descriptions of this ongoing series here – Sensual Shadows – Chronology.