In Lilah – Sexual Healing, I introduce Lilah and few of our sexual kinks but really focus on the love we have for one other. We then look in on our search for a Bull to fuck Lilah on occasion while I am away in Lilah: Finding Our Bull. Lilah: Meet and Greet, describes Lilah’s first meeting with her prospective Bull and how she ended up fucking him in the backseat of her car. A tight as those quarters were, the sex was amazing and Lilah was eager for more. Lilah: Please Daddy focuses on the erotic afterglow of her first night with Mason and Lilah’s desire to see him again.
Lilah and I are both turned on by the experience unfolding before us and I eagerly agreed to Lilah seeing Mason tonight. We are a few hours out from her next naughty rendezvous with Mason when my phone lights up with a message from Lilah:
“Baby, I’m home now and getting ready for my night with Mason. I can’t wait to see him again! I’ve just taken a shower, shaved my legs, and put on some lotion. I’m going to wear his favorite color tonight too – blue. I can’t wait for him to bend me over his bed and fuck me so good. I know he’s going to have me coming non-stop tonight!”
Oh god, I love how Lilah is engaging me in this journey. It is intensely arousing knowing my girl is getting dolled up for another man. It isn’t lost on her that my excitement and sexual arousal is important too. After all, she may be fucking another man but I am her lover and the journey belongs to us as a couple. Lilah cranks the heat up even higher by sending me a few photos.
“Do you think he will like me in these panties?”
“Blue is his favorite color so I want to wear this for him. “
Whew. Let me tell you, it is one intense mind fuck to have my lover sending me sexy lingerie shots and asking if I think another man will find her sexy? I rub my hard cock knowing very well that Mason is going to love her outfit. He’s going to love it even more when he has his big hands on her ass as he bends her over and slides his long, thick cock deep inside my girl’s tight pussy. As this is building, my mind is compressing and I can’t think of anything beyond Lilah.
Lilah needs to finish getting ready and, as much as I would like for her to chat with me, she can’t spend the evening messaging with me. She has things to do and another man waiting to fuck her tonight. After making the drive to Mason’s place, Lilah let’s me know she arrived safely and is heading in. Then, there is silence.
As I describe my excitement around this erotic adventure, I do appreciate that others – man or woman – might consider this situation to be incredibly upsetting or confusing. That is the way kinks work though…if it made sense to everyone it wouldn’t be a kink. I have written a lot about the psychology and erotic themes of cuckolding. If you are interested in exploring the “why” behind it, you can find it here – Cuckolding.
A few minutes pass and I know she is now in Mason’s arms. There is a range of wildly contrasting emotions that begin to swirl within me. It is a very Dionysian experience filled with duality, inversion, psychological masochism, and contrast. It is an erotically mesmerizing and intoxicating space. And, it burns. I felt like I was ready for this moment but I’m struggling. As minutes turn into tens of minutes and half hours, the silence becomes nearly deafening.
I know by she is sucking Mason’s big cock and fucking him. He’s probably been fucking her for hours. My heart is beating out of my chest and my body is shaking. My mind is bending. Two hours pass and I’ve heard nothing. No text, nothing. She must be completely swept away in erotic bliss. Is she even thinking about me?
The mind does funny things in moments like this. The woman I love and adore is in another man’s bed this very moment. She’s probably coming on his big cock over and over…kissing him and licking his balls. Can a relationship really stand this kind of test? What if she falls in love with him? I’m a confident man…maybe I’ve been too confident. The very delicate balance I try to maintain is getting shaky. Yet, my cock is rock hard. Damn it! I’m feeling the cuckold angst but so turned on. The Bull gets to have his way while the cuckold waits.
Finally, a message drops in from my Lilah:
To be continued…