Tonight is the big night – Sienna’s first time with a black man. A big part of the evening for me will be to capture the erotic moments through video and photos. I want to ensure Sienna and I can enjoy the hot memories long after the experience has passed. I set up my tripod and equipment and begin playing with the room lighting. I need enough light for good images but also wan’t to protect the dreamy vibe of low lighting. I walk nervously from one light to another testing different settings and taking sample photos.
It feels like I’m putting a lot of effort into a situation where Sienna and another man are going to have sex, not me. An outsider might look at this scene and see weakness in my behavior. This moment though, this night is what I want. I wasn’t “forced” into this. I brought this moment to life.
I recall an exchange with Sienna several months ago about the power displayed through the camera. I had sent her a cartoon of a man taking photos of his lover with a black man and asked her what she thought about it. Her response was much more thoughtful than I had anticipated. She saw the image as reflecting the control and power of the cuckold in this moment. There is a lot of truth in this.
Sweetheart, this image speaks to your power. You are in complete control and exert your power through the camera and video recorder. You are the conductor orchestrating a symphony of pleasure. The whole experience is your vision brought to life. Without you, it doesn’t happen. At any moment you can say stop and everything halts. I know this experience is more cerebral for you. As good as the physical aspect will be for me, I know the mind fuck will be equally, if not more intense for you. You will find great pleasure in orchestrating the flow of what turns you on and capturing the details. In doing so, you ensure the sights and sounds of this pleasure symphony will be ours to enjoy over and over again long after our Black Bull has completed his stud service. It also speaks to your strength, confidence, and trust in the power of our deep, sensual connection. Your belief in me and the power of our love only draws me closer to you. This will be like a reverse mind fuck for Jalen. Deep down, he knows no matter how much bigger his cock is than yours or whatever he makes me feel, it will never be enough to take me from you! I am YOURS!” – Sienna
There is a storm is raging within me. If this were a fictional story, it would be easy to say I am just chilling out and feeling nothing but arousal. But, this isn’t fiction. The emotional and erotic swirl is intense. This is part of the mind fuck I have been experiencing all day. It is edgy – arousing but also filled with angst. This tension drives the cuckold experience. Once I have my equipment squared away, I take a seat in the calm eye of the storm.
I love Sienna and this is what will make it so damn hard to watch another man fuck her. I love her and that is what makes it so damn hot! I want it like crazy, and I hate it. It is the tension between these opposing forces – the mind fuck – that fuels my transcendent erotic experience.
Sienna loves the way we are together and how on every level “We” are like nothing she has ever experienced before. Having all her dreams and passions fulfilled by the man she loves is a source of pride for her and something she has often mentioned. I am confident in our love and feel zero angst about that changing. As for the physical, I think Jalen is going to fuck her better and make her feel sexual highs like she has never felt before. In fact, the purpose of this visit is for him to fuck her and fill her with more than she has ever experienced before.
Jalen’s cock is several inches longer, twice as thick, and I’m confident he knows how to use it. Our sex will still be really good, but she will now know that it is possible for another man to take her to even higher levels of physical pleasure and she will be a woman who knows what more feels like. I do hope she will remember my role in all of this. I made this gift of pleasure possible…even if it comes from the cock of another man.
The stage is set. I planted and nurtured this seed of desire that is now in full erotic bloom. Sienna longs for this experience like nothing else before and we haven’t had sex in over a month. She is sexually primed. Jalen is primed. I will present my sensual, dreamy girl to another man tonight. He will stand right here in this room and undress her.
She will marvel at the size of his cock and feed his ego by telling him how much bigger he is than me. I will watch intently as she takes his black cock in her mouth and rubs his meaty manhood all over her lips and face while looking into his eyes. Then, he going to fuck my girl and treat her just the way she to be treated – like his personal fuck doll and black cock slut.
My stream of thought is broken when Sienna returns from the bathroom all dolled up and looking sexy as hell. Her hair is perfect and her makeup and mascara really make her beautiful blue eyes pop. I always see her with new eyes and never fail to appreciate and let her know how gorgeous she is. “How do I look, baby? Do I look like a sexy white fuck doll? That is what Jalen wants you know?” Sienna prances around and models for me.
I notice she is also wearing “our” shoes. She wore those same shoes the night she and I became one. They hold sentimental value for us and always trigger a dreamy stroll down memory lane when she wears them. Of all her shoes, those are the ones she thought about and carefully selected? Those shoes will be captured in hours of video and over a hundred photos and serve as an ever-present reminder of the time she first cuckolded me and experienced her first black cock.
I’m zoning. “Baby! Do you think Jalen will think I look sexy?” I apologize for the slow reply and tell her I was swept away with fantasy thoughts about the night. “You look so gorgeous, baby. He is going to want to fuck you as soon as he sees you.” Sienna blushes, “Awww, thank you love. You always know how to make me feel so good.”
We are heading out soon to meet Jalen. Before leaving, I ask her to lay on the bed and pose for a few photos. Sienna recognizes the significance behind my request and asks, “Baby, are you taking a before and after photo? Do you want one last photo of me before I have been with a black man? Do you think I will look or feel different?” I downplay her questions so I don’t create any unnecessary stress for her but admit to wanting one last photo before she cuckolds me. Do I think she will look differently afterwards? No, but I believe she will feel different…not a bad different, just different.
For the first time since she fell in love with me, she will spread her legs for another man and excitedly welcome him deep inside her. Her breasts, once reserved for me, will welcome his large dark hands. Sienna’s amazing ass will be his to squeeze and spank as he wishes. He will no doubt make my lover cum all over his hefty manhood and empty himself deep inside Sienna’s pussy. And, she wants it all to happen. After tonight, it will be different…hopefully even better as we start off on a new sexual journey together. Still, the future is unknown and I want…one last photo with those shoes.
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