Sensual Shadows is one of several series I am sharing on my blog. It is a true story about a past lover named Sienna and our loving, erotic journey. Sharing our story is a bit challenging for me at times because many of our stories were posted previously on our blog. I want to protect the spirit and energy of the original post. There are some stories, however, that require more context in terms of how “I” experienced it. This is one of those moments.
The original version of Toying with the BBC Fantasy contained actual images of Sienna with a large black dildo, I have recreated those images in a digital art format to protect her privacy. I still have several more images to recreate and will be adding those soon.
Sharing Toying with the Fantasy (the original version with photos) on our blog was an incredibly erotic experience. At this point in our relationship, being with a black man was still just a fantasy for Sienna. Yet, her willingness to pose for me with a large black dildo was a real indication that she was indeed comfortable with the idea and ready. I can recall how turned on I was during our photo session and how hard it was to keep my hands off her and on the camera.
The actual photo session was one level of hotness, but it went to another level for me when Sienna agreed to posting a few of the photos on our blog. I get quite an erotic rush from exhibitionism. Sharing my kinks with others and sexy visuals of my girl are also part of the exhibitionistic streak running through me. Sienna had started off somewhat modestly with exhibitionism but was starting to enjoy putting on a little show for others to watch.
I dig a little deeper into the psychology of exhibitionism in the post Exhibitionism – Exploring the Layers
My own excitement (not to mention Sienna’s anticipation) around the sharing of this gallery was much more than the rush of sharing nude photos. It also made me hot thinking about the other men that would be seeing my girl and knowing they wanted to fuck her. This definitely tapped into my cuckold fantasy. Also, by posing with a black dildo, Sienna was clearly communicating that she was craving another man – a black man. Having the woman I love sharing her naughty desires in such a public way had me literally dripping with arousal.
I know these digital art versions aren’t the same as the real thing but hope they at least capture a part of the erotic energy swirling around that moment in time.
As I was importing and reading through comments from the original post, it really took me back in time to the moment we first posted this. Sienna was excited but still a bit bashful in some ways. She didn’t know what to do with comments from the men and didn’t want them to think in any way that she wasn’t crazy about me. Behind the scenes, we were discussing the reactions of the several men who commented and, privately, she did find it really exciting.
I seemed to be a bit on the defensive in my replies to comments. I didn’t want things to get out of hand and scare Sienna, but also didn’t want to discourage or shut down any hot comments. I needed to ensure Sienna felt safe and comfortable with what was happening. Our north star in all our posts was to ensure that others understood our true love for one another…even when we fantasized about other men joining us.
It is also worth noting the muscular black man named Jalen made his first comments on our blog after we posted this gallery. I checked him a little and simply ignored some of his comments. Sienna didn’t engage with him or any of the men. It will be interesting to see the comments from Jalen in the future as we begin to engage more and more with him. Our interactions with him are notable because he will eventually become the man that first sinks his big black cock deep inside my sweet, sensual girl.