One of the erotic layers Sienna and I have been exploring is my desire for her to tease me about having a little cock. We still go around in circles a bit about whether the “root” of this fantasy is factual or not. I explore the psychology of this fantasy and others in Erotic Humiliation – Exploring the Layers.
While I do really enjoy this kink, there are challenges associated with it. On one hand, I aspire to be the most amazing lover Sienna has ever experienced – heart, mind, body, and soul. On the other hand, my kink is driven by being “less than” and my lover’s desire for another man’s bigger cock – preferably a big black cock. Her desire for a bigger cock plays in mind as the release of her primal desires and sexual liberation.
Is it possible to create a loving space where a woman can break free from social constraints and embrace her wild physical nature while retaining the emotional safety of a loving relationship? Free of emotional angst and what society deems as appropriate behavior, can Sienna accept the experience of another man as a “gift of pleasure” from me – the man that truly loves her? I believe a woman’s desire for “more” flows from our earliest archetypal dreams and is already within her. I only need to awaken it and set her free to embrace this hidden desire.
There are, of course, sexual benefits for me too. Sienna’s sexual liberation and craving for more would also ignite a competitive wildfire of passion within me that makes me want to fuck the hell out of her…to fuck her like she has never been fucked before or will ever be fucked again. I explore the underlying psychological and biological drivers of male competition in the Sperm Wars post.
Currently, I find myself in a bit of dilemma. Sienna isn’t actually craving “more” because she loves my cock and our sex life is already off-the-charts amazing. Honestly, it is a great “problem” to have, but it doesn’t work well with my sexual kinks or her sexual liberation. I do believe that if she experienced another man with a larger cock – within the safety of our loving relationship – it would open her mind and body to a whole new realm of possibilities.
She has lived her life within the paradigm of how things are supposed to be. This has led to an endless cycle of disappointments in past relationships, sexual guilt, and the repression of her sexual fantasies. However, she is slowing spreading her wings. We’ve dabbled in exhibitionism (Photos for Daddy) and we have been exploring her submissive side which flows through many of earlier posts (Press Play – Again…Again and Sienna’s Fantasies).
I have also introduced my fantasy of watching her with another man and she has orgasmed many times to our erotic stories around this theme. Sienna has become intrigued by the thought of being taken by a hung black man and loves her new big black dildo. Now, it is time to get her mind around the size of my cock so she will have a frame of reference for small penis teasing.
Women think they know the size of their man’s cock but how many have actually seen their lover’s cock against a ruler? How many would dare ask such a question? I think most men would freak out. Sienna is convinced I have a big cock and repeatedly tells me cock is perfect for her. She’s never going to put me to the tape measure so I decide to help her out by letting her know I had the urge to put my manhood to the measuring tape and took some photos.
Sienna – ICFY!!!
Michael – What is ICFY? I Can’t Feel You?
Sienna – ICFY = I’m crazy for you!!!! Daddy!!!!!!! You are making me crazy!!!!! Send them!
Well now. I hadn’t actually anticipated such enthusiasm about seeing my cock against a ruler. I know men are more “cock centric” than women but it strikes me as very hot my sweet little girl wants to know the actual size of Daddy’s cock. As hot as it would be to send a photo, it’s a big step. After she sees it, there’s no going back. I stall by sending her other photos of me in various states of undress.
Sienna – That pic of you in the mirror!!!!!! My beautiful hard, sexy, yummy Man!!! Okay, so you teased me with more pics… Hmmmm, are you going to send the others??????? Craving you!
Oh god, my heart is racing! I was hoping the other photos would distract her and might be able to move on without sending the ruler photo. But, she is dialed in. Sienna wants to see my cock against the ruler. I ask her again if she is sure she wants to know?
Sienna – Yes!!!! Baby! You have me so crazy intrigued! Mmmm, You make MY ❤ race! Daddy, your cock fits so tight and perfectly in your girl’s pussy… Mmmm and YOU can touch OUR spot and make me cum so crazy in the most amazing way!!!!
I’m feeling anxious all of the sudden. Why did I bring this up? I let Sienna know how sexy she is and remind her that this cock is hers. The size may not be what she is expecting, but it is her cock now and does fill OUR spot perfectly.
Sienna – Of course Love!!!! Mmmmm, you make your girl so wet and yummy! Daddy, are you punishing your girl by withholding pictures from her????
I was the instigator and now I’m feeling pressured, ha! I do love the tension though and savor the moment. For a man with fantasies like mine, this is erotic gold. I’m looking at the photo, my fully engorged cock extended along the ruler…the objective truth free of emotional subjectivity. Sienna is relentless…
Sienna – You are so naughty! Mmmm Baby…I’m waiting!!!
I look at the photo one last time. I attach it. My heart is pounding! I hoover just above the send button with my hand shaking and…press it. Waiting for her reactions, I am flushed and shaking with excitement.
Sienna – Daddy, you need to see where * inches is on me!!!!!
Sienna’s nurturing instincts come rushing forth. She continues to respond in a series of texts that are full of love and point to our incredible sex as evidence that my cock is perfect for her. She has ever made me feel like I have a small cock or in any way lacking in ability to fully and deeply satisfy her. Still, her reaction works against my fantasy of her craving a larger cock.
Sienna – Baby!!!! Do you see where * inches comes up on my stomach?!!! Mmmm Baby, I love that you have this fantasy but you need to know…your girl is little!
This was actually a very hot reply. I think it was accidental but she is saying that even though I do have a little cock, it works great for us because she has a little pussy. At this point, I’m also feeling bad for putting her in a tough situation. I was just wanting to have some hot mind play but it may be too real for her. I can tell she is uncomfortable about how to respond. I assure her that I know how amazing it feels for us to make love and that I am absolutely crazy about her.
Sienna – Mmmmm, I love your words and I do love the way you love me! About your size, okay, fair enough. It is smaller than I imagined but that’s because you work such magic with it! Just as long as you know I feel so pleasured and fulfilled by your little cock!!! ❤❤❤❤ So, should I feel inadequate since I feel pleasured and fulfilled by a little cock?! ❤❤❤❤ I do like it too though when you get turned on and control fucking me with the BBC toy!!!!
This was a new erotic layer to share with Sienna but it felt safe to do so. I wasn’t sure if she would go with it or not, but I knew she wouldn’t make me feel bad about it. Her comment about feeling inadequate herself because she is satisfied by a smaller cock strikes me as interesting. I have always wondered if a woman takes pride in the size of her man’s cock or if there a level of psychological satisfaction – in addition to pleasure – that comes with being able to handle a larger cock? I would file this question away and come back to it in the future.
One currently available post discussing these very questions is available here: Cuckold Corner – Amanda on Cock Size.
For now, I simply let her know that small penis teasing is a really hot mind fuck for me but I never want her to do anything that makes her uncomfortable.
Sienna – OMgosh Baby, I love how you are so thoughtful in sharing things with me, helping me understand, and loving me. It is so healthy and good for me. I so want to fulfill your innermost desires and fantasies. I find it all to be such a turn on because it speaks to your confidence and self-assuredness. It says, “Baby, I trust you and I’m putting it all out there…is it okay?” What a gift!!!!!!!!! A DREAM COME TRUE!!!!!!❤️
Progress is sometimes measured in inches.
- Sensual Shadows – Chronology, brief description, and links to my journey with Sienna.
- Cuckold Psychology – The Essentials – Posts exploring the psychology of cuckolding