Heavenly view of world
Heavenly View of the World

Immersed in the passionate blaze of romantic love, I wrote following tribute to Sienna when we walked as one and shared our journey on the blog, Sensual Shadows.

Jamie O’Neal, There Is No Arizona


I’m now several years removed from that time and have been on a journey of discovery and a quest for deeper meaning since then. What have I learned? I believe Mountain of Dreams is really written to what I see as the soul of a woman. It is my soul’s projection of the ideal woman…my anima. She may even be illusion but she is mine and I find her in you…the lovely women who engage with me. Thank you for giving her wings to soar and for keeping her alive🌹

Mountain of Dreams

It seems almost implausible that I could miss someone I never knew. Yet, it feels as though I knew you before I met you. I was missing you and have been looking for you all my life. I felt your presence and caught glimpses of you in the beauty of rivers, forests, mountains, and the heavens…in the flow and interconnectivity of it all with my soul. I dreamed of days and nights for which I waited, when all would be revealed.

I am drawn to you and hypnotized by your natural beauty. It isn’t a casual, fleeting sensation but one that is experienced through all my senses on a deeper level. You first appeared cloaked in a mystical haze which only belied the beauty within. It is much like the metaphorical mask we each wear that hides our mysterious inner beauty from the world. I am drawn in to explore and unfold your layers. At first, your vibrant hues and layers are hidden from view and I am met with resistance. Even in your winter facade, I know you are there…waiting to unfold and blossom in light and warmth of love.

Your beauty spans time and transforms with the seasons. With each glance, I struggle to breathe as you fill my eyes with wild wonder and passion’s flame burns in my soul. In my eyes, you are divine and infinite. Your sweeping curves are kissed by heavenly light and surely a gift from above. Revealed and open before me, your wetness is a gushing river. Your sensuality is a smooth, deep lake. You are layered and exquisite…so much more than a fleeting glance can take in and appreciate. You deserve close, deep, and endless exploration to discover and unfold all your beauty.

In my eyes and through all my senses, you embody all that is beautiful and deep in this world. I realize now that I have been making love to you my entire life. I recently returned to the place I first felt your presence. You were with me there…just as you always have been.


50 thoughts on “Mountain of Dreams (There is No Arizona)

  1. So very beautiful. I love how you are able to put words and images to the depth of your feeling for Sienna. It brought tears to my eyes. Love to you both. D

    1. Thank you, Desiree! 🙂 I made some breakthroughs in exploring my thoughts and feelings as this came together. There was something I was missing as I reflected and wrote…over and over. When the connection finally came together, my eyes watered too. I knew I had found the place in my heart my thoughts had been searching for. I appreciate you sharing that it touched an emotional chord with you as well. 🙂

  2. Your love for Sienna are as beautiful as the pictures. To know she is there with you when you are apart shows how deep your love is. Thank you for sharing.

    1. Thank you, B! Glad to see you around again…I think we have both been on a bit of a hiatus from WP. Look forward to catching up with your blog. Happy New Year!

      1. Time hasn’t been on my side lately. Glad to have some time to catch up. Happy New year to you also.

  3. Michael!!!!!

    This is so incredibly beautiful and touching, I’d say I’m speechless! But that wouldn’t be true because I’m a woman and that’s impossible. 😉

    Seriously, the way you are able to express your love for Sienna is incredible and you do it in a way that some men could only dream to have the ability to do.

    Bravo! Kisses to you both!


    1. Tis, Happy New Year!!! Thank you for the incredibly touching comment…gracious and appreciated. 🙂 At first, this felt like a departure from my usual photos and writing. In the end, I realized I was still writing about and sharing images of Sienna and it became an incredibly powerful journey into the heart and soul.

      1. Happy New Year to you too Michael!

        It may have felt like a departure but at first, but it was beautiful just the same. There are no rules any of needs to follow when it comes to expressing our love for our partner and that’s part of what made this so incredible.


  4. ‘I knew you before I met you’ …. Fuck, that is hot.

    1. Thank you Jalen, Happy New Year! I went on bit of a spiritual sojourn with Sienna on this and Love what I found! 🙂

  5. Poetic Passions

    Beautiful and loving thoughts….

    1. Glad it resonated with you, thank you! 🙂

  6. My Love…I have been marinating in this dreamy mountain of thoughts for the past 24 hrs. The fact that you were in such a special place of intriguingly beautiful memories that touched you with the very description of our meeting and our love is so very intoxicating and beautiful. The depth and breadth of what’s beyond your words and my expression to you can only be communicated in a way that is beyond my comments here…my needing, in a physical way, to reach out and grasp your hands in mine…to feel your breathe into me as we gaze deeply into one another’s your eyes and take each other in as we make deep passionate love. No words of expression…only our bodies speaking the language we interpret in our minds and fusing together of our connectedness in these images from your past…It is a love we have both always known, yet never understood until…now! xoxoxoxoxoxo
    I Love You Michael!

    1. I Love You Sienna. This is such a special comment. I know this post caught you by surprise. As I mentioned, I had been thinking about this for a while trying to make sense of what I was feeling. I’m not sure I captured it clearly, but I know you understand. So much of the meaning is beyond words…like the magical, overwhelming and deep sensual connection we reach when we are making love and become one…no you or me…only US. Soooo looking forward to reaching that magical space again…and again!

  7. Very well-said, Michael. It’s a gift you’ve been given, discovering in real time, the person to whom you’ve been making love your whole life. Very few do. Next time you’re in one of these beautiful landscapes you love, I suggest leaving an offering, as a thanks for this gift. A rock cairn perhaps. Just a thought.

    1. Thanks JK, that is a great idea! I like the thought of gathering stones and creating a tribute…engaging additional senses in the experience.

      1. The creative process is so intimate to me, even with rocks. Especially using big, heavy rocks, and building with her in mind, the strain in the body and the racing creative mind will be something wonderful to experience.

  8. errantsatiety

    Incredibly special to find the one you have always sought without knowing. Surely a treasure beyond all other things in this mad world. That you have each other as rocks to cleave to and be smoothed by the passage of your love as time flows… such gorgeous imagery your thoughts inspire.

    1. Glad you enjoyed this one…looks like you came across two contrasting stories here as well. 🙂 Your comment and your writing is full of powerful imagery, “rocks…smoothed by the passage of your love as time flows”–Wow! Thanks for giving this one a read.

      1. errantsatiety

        My pleasure entirely 🙂

  9. 🙂 this is as beautiful and touching today as it was nearly two years ago.

    1. Hi Kristi 🙂 Wow, thank you so much for checking out my posts today…I’m so flattered! I’m excited to give your blog a deep dive today too. I’m glad you enjoyed this…it was a special place to be.

      1. it’s been a pleasure.

        1. tiffanybeingfree

          Michael, this is truly beautiful and amazing. The emotions run deep and wide, pulling me into the words as if I were there. You have an amazing gift!

        2. Wow, thank you Tiffany! This is such a beautiful comment. 🙂 It is clear that your beauty runs deep as does the flowing river…

  10. Miss Evelyn

    So what happened to Sienna?

    1. She is a light that still flickers. I will begin telling her story in more depth soon. I have a few more foundational pieces to lay down on my blog that are essential to understanding and fully appreciating Sienna. Hope you will enjoy my journey with her as I will savor sharing it. 🙂

      1. Miss Evelyn

        I have a feeling you are sharing your long lost memories with us. Do you think relieving those feelings will help you or the reader understand?

        1. To understand the confounding, it is sometimes helpful to break it down and reconstruct it. It gives me a better appreciation for how the individual pieces contribute to the whole. Along the way, I hope others find it helpful…and get a little turned on in the process. 😉

  11. Mary Cathleen Clark

    This is beautifully written, Michael. I recently found a man I felt as if I had known my whole life (and I’ve been around a while 😊), and it’s a wonderful, scary feeling.

    1. Hey Cathy, that is so great to hear. After all the talks we’ve had on other forums I’m sure he believes he’s the luckiest guy in the world. Good luck to you and your new relationship. I’m sure it will go exactly as you wish, my friend.

      1. Mary Cathleen Clark

        I’m counting on it, JW.

  12. The depth of emotion in this piece is beautiful and thought provoking; especially with regards to the yearning for forever love; one that is always imagined, familiar, and constantly sought after. Great post.

    1. Thank you, this is a wonderful comment. I wrote this a few years ago when I was in engulfed in what I later learned was “Romantic Love”. Appreciate you stopping by…been on a recent hiatus but look forward to following your work.

  13. “I have been making love to you my entire life.” yes. Yes Perfectly said

    1. Hi Amy Jo, thanks so much for visiting my blog and exploring a few posts. This was a powerful moment…I was swept away in the beauty and bliss of life.

  14. Carly Quinn

    So this is describing the flash in the pan, romantic love. Couldn’t it, as well, be describing a kindred spirit? I can see both ways, and know well that romantic love can be generated for less than honest purposes. I guess I’m hoping that it can also be a pathway you didn’t see clearly at first, or perhaps one you wouldn’t have otherwise considered.

    1. Not so much flash in the pan but I get where you are coming from. It could a journey of years. The intent of romantic love is always pure. It is the infinite and divine projection of our soul on another person. The concept of romantic love is everywhere. Poem after poem on WordPress, romantic novels one after the other, movies, and millions of songs decade after decade. Each artist is projecting their soul through their art. Believing it can be lived as an indefinite state of being is where disillusionment and unhappiness comes after the glow of romantic love fades. If we see and understand the cycle, we can do things differently and move towards enduring and complete love. ❤️

      1. Carly Quinn

        You mean like not fall apart one morning when you wake up and it’s not there?

        1. I’d say it means recognizing that we are experiencing Romantic Love while in the midst of it. Acknowledging what romantic love is, you can take steps to prevent the disillusionment that comes when you believe your lover has in some way failed you when romantic love begins to fade. This intermediate step requires open communication about wants, needs, and compromises and a long-term commitment to one another to work through the rough patches and appreciating that the grass isn’t always greener on the other side. It may seem so in the short if romantic love fires up with another lover but that too will fade in the long run. Romantic love is cycle of highs and lows, over and over with new people. The Romantic Love post is really, really important if we can sit with it and think through its meaning and application. The book WE (which I mention in the Romantic Love post) is really worth a read as well. Thank you taking some time to explore this 🌹😊

  15. Hey Michael — this comment has nothing to do with this post, but I couldn’t find a “contact page”. I truly just want to thank you for still supporting me and reading me though what I post now falls far from the realm of where we first met. It means a lot. So, thank you, sexy friend for being a friend! ❤

    1. Awww, thank you and a big hug😘 Oh, sorry about that firm sensation you feel pressing against your stomach😉😊 I have always admired your writing…just can’t read them all, ha! Hope you have a great weekend. I left my email on your blog if you ever want to reach me.

  16. Wonderful photo collage for a sensuous story. Am so glad I stumbled upon you, my friend!

    1. Awww Kris, you are a special soul…I am the fortunate one. SO glad you enjoyed this 🌹😘

  17. Would you like to see inside the free astarte? Where freya started to liberate her self from the light armour of cloaks to the unarmoured and unclothed…

    1. I hear the voice of an enchantress from beyond the door. I feel a mesmerizing magnetic pull. Yes, open the door. I want to see…

      1. It is a huge mess though. I have so many rooms and homes and boxes and posters and stuff lying around. I barely remember which what where and when ahahaha. But hey, I will let you in. Just… mind the mess please. xx

      2. I have sent it, and I hope it is well received. I think I posted the other photos in the jokers sleeve

        1. I received and look forward to exploring. I’m usually a very engaged follower for those who also engage with me. I’m in the process of trying to reestablish my here (from a previous location) and, as a result, being very inward focused at the moment. Give me a little time to get settled here ☺️

          1. Oh Michael. Take your time. I trust you. I feel us to be kindred kind. There is much to take care of in the outside physical world as well as insider, and the number of words and emanations, listening and shimmingering layers for reason.
            I look forward to hearing from you soon or later. You know how to reach me. ((Blows a kiss.))

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