“You acknowledge the sexual hierarchy by licking the Black Bull’s cum from my pussy. My sexy lover with a smaller white cock shares in the bliss of the Black Bull fantasy with the white sexual Goddess–YOUR woman. In doing so, you—my forever lover—set me free to fulfill my lustful cravings for black men.” ~ Sienna
If you have following my journey with Sienna, you know that interracial cuckolding and small penis teasing are among our favorite sexual kinks. As the following story unfolds, we are in the afterglow of our first interracial cuckold experience. As a man that lives my life as a highly-competitive alpha male, being cuckolded and enduring small-penis teasing serves as a form of psychological masochism that I find wildly erotic. It also represents something known as inversion—the reversal of one’s status and self concept–a sensation associated with the greek god, Dionysus.
During the initial sharing and development of our cuckold fantasy, Sienna had resisted making any reference that would cast me in the role of “less than” or in any way sexually inferior to the black men that filled her fantasies. I appreciated that she felt this way, but it also worked against a part of the fantasy I found very exciting–erotic humiliation (psychological masochism).
Now that she had actually experienced her first black cock, my desire for her to make comparisons based on her real-life experience was more intense than ever. However, there was more to it than my own masochistic pleasure. If Sienna would allow herself to go this space (assuming she felt it), it would be a sign that she had tapped into something deeper within her own sexuality—something raw and bestial—that is purely pleasure based and distinct from the complexities of an emotional connection. She would then be a step closer to the Naughty Angel archetype I craved.
What you are about to read is an intimate moment of truth and erotic humiliation as Sienna confesses that sex with Jalen (the well-endowed black man that fucked her) was better. Sienna then describes in detail why she now believes that in the sexual hierarchy the “Black Bull” is superior.
The Sexual Hierarchy – Sienna’s Confession
Sienna and I are texting back and forth one day when I tease her about her phone lagging and being outdated. She comes back at me strongly, “Baby, you better be careful. I’m going to have my new friend with a big black cock put you and your little cock in its place!” Sienna’s reply is surprising and also very hot.
She has long resisted the aspect of our fantasy that casts me as sexually inferior to her Black Bull. Having now experienced her first black cock, the reality seems to have given her new perspective. I explore our newly expanding erotic edge. “What is he going to tell me or show me? Is he going to show me once again how much better he can fuck my girl than I can? Will I again witness how differently you respond to having a REAL cock inside you?” My cock strains with excitement in anticipation of her reply.
I imagine her naughty thoughts swirling and clashing with her more loving and angelic spirit. My heart races as I open her reply. “Mmmm baby, yes! He showed this to both of us, but it seems you may be due for a reminder!” Damn, she said it, right? Wow. For the first time since experiencing her first black cock, is Sienna actually admitting that he fucked her better? The next message drops in, “Even so, we both know I will always come back to you and my little white cock. It may be small by comparison, but it’s so dependable, loving, and precise.”
There is a pang in my chest and her words strike like a little punch in my stomach. My body feels shaky, but my cock reveals the truth as Sienna’s not-so-veiled admission has left me achingly hard. He did fuck her better…and she admitted it. I push for more of the masochistic rush engulfing me. “Sexy girl, mine is the cock of the man that loves and adores you. The other man has different intentions. He offers a big, thick black cock intent giving make you and your tight white pussy recognize his sexual superiority. It’s a sensation you’ve experienced and one that has changed your perception of the sexual hierarchy.
Sienna is getting into it, “Yes baby, I now recognize this and I do crave MORE big black cock! This is all so hot and naughty…I love it! I can take it all from both my men and drain you both. Then again, I don’t ever really drain you. Even after you have fucked me so good and came so many times, your big beautiful balls keep loading up with more creamy cum for me!” Sienna is right about not being able to fully drain me. The thought of her being with or craving other men never fails to fully reload my balls.
Sienna lets me know she has more to share and will do so in an email later in the day. She adds, “It’s about Jalen and I think you’re going to like it…I hope so!” I love when she feels inspired to put her thoughts down on paper. It is like receiving an erotic gift to be able to wander through her naughty and well-developed thoughts. Throughout the remainder of the day, my cock drips with arousal and anticipation as I constantly scan my inbox. Finally, her email appears…
Sweet love, I so enjoyed our texting today. This entire adventure with you is so hot, naughty, and liberating! There are some things I have really wanted to share with you since our time with Jalen but have felt hesitant. I wasn’t sure if you REALLY wanted to know the truth, or if you just thought you might want to know. The last thing in the world I ever want to happen is to say or do anything that would hurt you and US.
Over the last few weeks, we have spent a lot of time reminiscing about our experience with Jalen. You have often asked me about comparisons between you and him—his length, thickness, how I felt, etc. Although I never really mentioned it before, I had worried that once we experienced this you might feel differently towards me or even leave me after experiencing the fantasy. Along the way, you were always so reassuring and I ultimately felt comfortable going through with it. Still, there was that little nagging voice in the back of my mind. I think this is why I have been a bit vague in answering some of your comparison-type questions.
That said, you have handled me so amazingly since our time with Jalen and what we experienced has only fueled our passion for one another. I feel so fortunate and blessed to be your girl! It has taken me a little time to process this experience and become more comfortable with it as part of our new reality. I have also come to feel that you really do want to know the truth about how it felt for me. We have always been so open with another, and I want it stay that way. This is important to me.
Baby, when you first shared your cuckold fantasy and built up what the experience would be like for me, I didn’t think it would be possible for any man to ever supplant you as my “best ever”. I resisted at first but then went along with it in our fantasy talk. However, deep inside I didn’t really believe it was possible. Perhaps even more, I didn’t want it to be true. It was always such a magical feeling to look at you and know no man has ever commanded my body and my pleasure like you have. I couldn’t fathom ever telling you that another man had fucked me better.
Beyond the question of “better”, even the thought of being with another man blew my mind. Fucking a man I don’t know is so out of character for me, and I didn’t feel like I needed or even wanted another man. You are the man I love and more than enough for me. While it is true I did harbor a secret desire to experience the mythical “Big Black Cock”, it is something I would have never actually done before meeting you. Then, for this very thing to be encouraged by you—the man I love— and for it to play out in front of you was all so crazy hot! I learned a lot that day, but it left you with many unanswered questions. As awkward as it may feel to me, I owe you answers to those questions.
So, you want to know if he fucked me better? The short answer is YES. In terms of a purely physical experience, he fucked me better than you ever have. His cock was so big and magnificent! He made me feel sensations your smaller white cock simply can’t give me. To be fully transparent, it was the best sex of my life. Jalen fucked me better. There, I said it…finally. As you read this, I hope you are feeling turned on. I know you wanted me to feel this way. I knew in the moment I was feeling sensations…extremely pleasurable sensations beyond those I had ever experienced before. I was hesitant to admit it to you or, I suppose, even admit it to myself. How could this stranger make me feel soooo good?! How could I be so in love with you, yet respond so intensely to nothing but the raw physical power of another man’s cock? The truth though is undeniable.
In the afterglow of our naughty rendezvous, I’m left with this odd realization that the best sex I have ever had was with a black man that I have no emotional connection whatsoever and barely know. I was treated and behaved like nothing more than black cock slut…so eager to submit and surrender my pussy to him. In the context of what we were doing, I’m okay feeling this way. Actually, it still makes me makes me wet just thinking about how he handled me. I can’t even believe I’m sharing these thoughts. It all feels very primal, and I’m not sure what it says about me?
The memory of that day lingers very present in my day-to-day thoughts. Every time a see a black man, my pussy tingles as I’m flooded with fantasies about how good it would feel for him to fuck me. And, whenever I’m with my girlfriends, I feel like I have such a hot naughty secret I want to share with them. They would be so shocked, but I think they would be so jealous too. It’s all an intense mind fuck that constantly swirls around me. It’s so naughty and I love it! I think you knew this would be case and that’s part of the reason you wanted it for me.
Sweet love, you take such good care of your girl and completely spoiled me with those hours of decadent indulgence with Jalen. I haven’t told you this before, but I frequently please myself while scrolling through the photos and watching the videos you took that day. You did such an amazing job capturing those hot moments for us to enjoy.
As I watch the videos, there is a recurring reaction I had in those hot moments that always catches my attention. Jalen would be in a groove and fucking me so good then he would stop and pulls his cock out. I instinctively reach out for him…begging and pleading with him to put his black cock back inside me. It is crazy to see my reaction! He laughs at me in my black-cock frenzy and seems to to enjoy seeing me begging for his black cock.
I couldn’t process it in the moment but his reaction makes me so wet when I go back and watch it. I’m sure he’s seen this from a lot of other girls and knew I would react the same way once he had been inside me. After months of building up to that day, it must have been hot for him to have me—the white goddess in his fantasy—with legs spread begging him for more of his thick, juicy black cock. Honestly, I never thought it would go that way or that he would feel so amazing!
Of course, there is the moment where you moved him aside took your turn between my legs. You slipped so easily inside me. He had had opened me up so deep and wide that I could barely feel you. I mean, I could feel the weight of your body against me and pressure on my clit. Inside though, there was nothing…I felt empty. It was so shocking and confusing. I wanted to feel you and wanted to feel good for you.
Mostly though, I felt like a pouty child that just had her favorite toy taken away and acted like a little brat. I know this hurt you and I’m still so sorry about acting this way. The contrast was so dramatic…more so than I ever imagined. I went from an out-of-control sensation of being stretched, filled past my limits, and constantly on the edge of coming to feeling very little with you. I was in such a primal state and craved the sensation of his black cock pushing the limits of my tight white pussy as I struggled to take all of him inside me.
Baby, he wanted me to feel the difference between his cock and yours. It is the same sensation you also wanted me to have. You both knew it would make me crave his big cock even more and it worked. On that day – in that lust-crazed moment – he was the man I wanted inside me. I recall having flashes of you watching and walking around the bed taking photos and videos. In those hazy, transient moments it was reassuring to see your little cock so hard and straining. I knew you were enjoying the experience too.
I want share some thoughts about Jalen’s first orgasm inside me. Sweetheart, he had given me such pleasure and countless waves of orgasms. I was cock drunk and wanted nothing more than to feel this man’s monstrous cock erupting inside me. I wanted it…I NEEDED his cum inside me if only to have some sense of closure. Maybe there was a part of me that wanted to have a part of him with me after he left? I don’t know why I felt this so strongly but I did.
You watched this man transport me to another world before leaving me wrecked on the bed in what felt like a black-cock coma with his seed spilling heavily from my VERY satisfied white pussy. I was dazed after he came and pulled out. I felt the heat from his cum inside me which contrasted against the emptiness of no longer having his magnificent cock completely filling my silky walls. As I lay there, it was surreal to feel so loved by you while at the same time feeling so sexually satisfied by another man. I couldn’t believe how good it had been and that it was actually okay for me to experience the guilty pleasure of this man and his AMAZING black cock.
You came closer and took your place between my legs as his cum spilled out and onto the sheets. My pussy was so on fire and wanton for you—my man—to cum inside me too. Like we had fantasized about, I was anticipating the sensation of having the cum of two men inside me. I knew I would have to wait for this guilty pleasure.
You spoke in the past about wanting to go down on me after another man came inside me. When you first shared this with me, I had a hard time getting my mind around it. It seemed like such an epic “wrong” in my head. It didn’t make sense. I couldn’t understand why you—my strong sexy man—would want to lick another man’s cum from my pussy. I understood it turned you on though and making you hot made it exciting for me.
As I lay there filled with Jalen’s cum, I realized my perception of you licking his cum from my pussy had changed. The true nature of this gesture was now clear, and it felt very hot for me in a new and unexpected way. I WANTED you to lick his cum from my pussy. It became an Alpha thing in my mind. He had the bigger cock and fucked me like I have never known before. He took me, stretched my pussy at his will, and fucked me in any position he wanted. He claimed my pussy to the extent that I couldn’t even feel you inside me. Then, when he was ready, he flooded my inner pink with his creamy sperm. He took what he wanted from me and you took whatever he left for you…including his cum in my pussy. I wanted Jalen to see you do it and for him to know that we—as a loving white couple—acknowledged his place in the sexual hierarchy.
Baby, I was loving you deep as you took your place and lapped up Jalen’s cum. His volume was so heavy, and I had been spread open so widely to accommodate his thick black cock. I knew then that this would be the first of many times you would lick the cum of black men from my pussy. Our acceptance of this new sexual hierarchy made it even hotter for me because it was like a reversal of the fabric of our culture. My sexy lover with a smaller white cock shared in the bliss of this Black Bull fantasy with the white sexual Goddess–YOUR woman. You gave way to my deep sexual desires, and I no longer had to hide my shameful dark cravings. My forever lover has set me free to fulfill my lustful cravings for black men. Through this, you and I experience a more honest and deeply committed love. It is all so fucking sexy and crazy hot! Mmmm, I love you!!! 💋😘😘💋🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
I’ll end with the most important thing I want you know. As amazing as he was – and I can’t deny that from a purely physical sensation he did fuck me better – it only makes me want you more! You are my sexy, yummy, confident lover! Ultimately, you are the one that spoiled me and provided this pleasure…even though it came from another man’s big black cock. It is only from within the safety of our relationship that I am able to fully experience this taboo and, yes, superior pleasure. While I had once doubted it was possible, your place in the sexual hierarchy is now evident to me. Yet, your power is greater in the hierarchy of love and that is where you prevail. Deeper than all the layers of this fantasy is the unbreakable love we share.
XOXOXO ~ Sienna
Michael Muses: You may be wondering how this left me feeling? As a man that enjoys interracial cuckolding and small penis teasing (a form of erotic humiliation), this letter left me incredibly turned on. There were moments that happened during the actual experience (which Sienna touches on) that weren’t perfect, but reality can never align perfectly with our fantasies. Nonetheless, our experience and Sienna’s confession remains as an incredibly erotic memory.
- Sensual Shadows – The Cuckold Posts: Sienna and I experienced many things during our relationship. If you are interested in the cuckold-specific posts, you can find them here.
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- Cuckold Corner – The Interviews: This post contains brief descriptions with links to interviews with men and women who are engaging in or curious about cuckolding. They are erotic reads.
- Sensual Shadows – The Chronology: The entire journey (descriptions and links) with Sienna including stories beyond cuckolding